“Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones,
as the wind blows out the candle and fans the bonfire.”

— Francois Duc de la Rochefoucauld

Hi Liz,
What is happening?
This started as a curiosity
I just wanted to be around you.
And now it’s turned into a magnetism,
pulling me across the country in the most dreaded of seasons.

I love you.

That kinda came out of nowhere.

But I saw a moment and took it, which is what I do with you, I guess. But you also saw the humour in the timing of that gesture.

Which is perfect. There is a trust here that we’re building … I think, you feel the same way I believe, that my heart has been right this whole time I hope; that it’s not wrong, but ultimately, it’s fine if it is. I know, this opaque list of shit will get deleted tomorrow because it’s not correct. It doesn’t have the honesty I’m looking for. And I know you’ll see right through it. That said, there’s something here that will get saved, it’s just probably not the stuff that is hard to read.
I am certain of it.

I love this trust that is growing betweeen us.

I want this back and forth to go on forever and for The Plan to never end …

In a chapter or two we'll have UI concerns with the nav.

Is this the start?

I’ve thought about how intense things are when we are together and have been worried that we’re just mutual thrill seekers and eventually this will wear off for either one or both of us and we won’t want to deal with the mundanity of being a normal couple together.

To counteract this I’ve thought about preemtively going out of my way to have us be boring together for moments, to sink into the mundanity like deep sea divers test themselves at different depths to get acclimitized to the pressure or maybe it’s not like that at all, but like how people that have mould in their house over time go nose blind to the smell. Regardless, I realize, because I’ve been here before (and never really thought I’d be back), love is precious and should be savored and we should enjoy every part of our love especially when it’s at it’s most sweet and delicate.